At the moment, countless things are going wrong with my living situation, which has been time consuming, costly and is causing me ongoing stress. This won’t be fully sorted until towards the end of next month, so I’m just trying to get through this period, and really hoping things will improve then. Thankfully, I have been able to delay the start of my placement. Just today, I’ve been given the all clear to go ahead, but if I can make sure that I am in a better space physically and mentally before I start, then I should be kind to myself and allow it.
With the time I’ve had before the new term kicks off, I’ve been setting up my work and have been completing a new ACE application. If it pays off, it will be really helpful to pay my training fees, giving me consistency and also doing something I love. I also had a breakthrough moment with one of my students, who I will have to stop tutoring due to my placement starting, but it’s so great to see their confidence improve. I’ve also had a couple of successful interview to get on a couple more agency’s books.
However, I’ve also had some creative disappointments too. I didn’t make it onto the Southbank’s New Poetry Collective, and I didn’t get a competitive commission that would have tied in so well to the work I’m doing, and really helped me financially. I’m finding it quite challenging to celebrate others’ successes without negatively comparing myself. However, being involved in actually sharing and creating work has really uplifted me. It’s important to know what actions you can take to get you out of those feelings.
whilst I have the time
Again, if you’re able to share or donate to my crowdfund as I train to become an Art Psychotherapist, or buy some books, please do!
Poet on page and stage. Creator of She Grrrowls. Facilitator. Writer. 